I made a decision a few weeks ago, and it’s hopefully the beginning of a journey that I will be able to share with you all.
I do not have a lifelong history of struggling with my weight. I was a “healthy” weight in high school, and a “healthy”-ish weight when I became pregnant. After my son was born, I gradually made it back down towards my “healthy”-ish weight. No one at my doctor’s office has ever commented on my weight, nor on my exercise habits. I love to eat and I love to cook. What I have is an almost lifelong history of a healthy body image.
I do not struggle with my weight.
I struggle with perception.
I struggle with acceptance.
I struggle with genetics.
I struggle with the media and the never-ending messages that seep into my brain and into my consciousness and tell me that my body isn’t good enough. That I need to have this shape or that shape. Larger boobs, smaller boobs, larger butt, smaller butt. Whatever, it goes on and on.
So the decision is this: Take better care of myself. Pay attention to what I’m feeding my body instead of mindlessly consuming. Focus on the wonderful parts – the parts I love and that are uniquely mine. This is my body and I know it’s awesome, and I want to treat it that way. With it I grew a child, nourished that child, hug that child and everyone else that is so important in my life. This is about recognizing that I could take better care of myself, that I deserve to take better care of myself. That I can continue to think that society’s standards on beauty and fitness, and in general what women are supposed to be/look/feel, are messed up, while still taking care of myself.
So, here’s to making a decision and the beginning of what is hopefully a wonderful journey!
Also, for the record, I think that society’s standards of how men are supposed to be/look/feel are pretty messed up too. While I’m mentioning it, if you haven’t seen Miss Representation, I think you should. It’s available on Netflix or to watch here for a small price.
I’d love to hear more about your own journey with health and body love!